I'm feeling pretty good now, but was feeling very low this morning. I was longing for the simpler times of my childhood and the love and protection of my parents. And I was wishing for my girls the same sheltered experience that I had. That they will never have. I never knew grief as a child. And I didn't have parents that were raw and grieving and scarred and broken.
For the most part I honestly prefer being grown up to being a kid. But sometimes it would be nice to be so naive and to live back in a time before the pain. And I feel so sad for my girls. Memories of childhood will never be the pain free sanctuary for them that they are for me.